Money and Fat Pants

Well I need some money...bad!I am working but I have no idea when I am supposed to get paid. I had to pay my bills using my credit card today! That blew! I'm almost $5K in debt on my credit card. Plus my car loan which is $4k and school loans that are $48K just this past year! Aye! So let's add that up...that means I'm $57K in debt. *sigh* That sucks. I hate being in debt. But I haven't had a job for almost a year and the one I have now is part time. I guess I shouldn't complain I should just be happy that I have something. I think I'm annoyed because things like my car and credit card would be paid off right now if I had had a job those ten months at school. School is turning into more of a problem then I had expected. I just pray that it will pay off someday. My dad keeps telling me that in two years I can buy things like a new car and a house. I really look forward to that time. But really that won't happen until I pass the bar and I won't pass the bar until I finish two more years of school. If I have to go back to Florida alone that won't be a lot of fun either. I don't know if I could handle it. I always say that I'm going to quit school. But honestly I can't do it. I would regret it later and the idea of coming back to Utah into the job I had just makes me sad. So I'll suck it up for two more years and get finished. Although there is this guy in Florida that I really wouldn't mind getting to know. But at the same time i don't know if I want to or not. Its weird and complicated. I guess I should look into it especially since the other boy is not working out. I know he's having a rough time but seriously how are you supposed to get over it if you don't go out. Grr...its annoying. I haven't chatted with him today and I plan on keeping it that way for awhile. I really don't think I'm even going to mention going hiking. Hopefully I won't anyway. I think he needs to figure out what he wants. Anyway, this was not supposed to be a post about him. Dang. Ok one quick side note. I'm watching the RHCP Californication video, why are they all shirtless? Just a question. Ok now on to the fat pants. I have been eating HORRIBLY lately. So I've made it a goal to go workout tomorrow morning and get back to eating better. I went to the store tonight to buy better food. If I don't do something quick then I going to need to buy sweat pant fat pants. Its crazy. Its not that I've been eating way bad but I've been eating a lot! So we're working on it. I really want to go play tennis. But I don't have a racket or anyone to play with, this is when I need Florida Steve. I played with him once and it was way fun. I also have been getting really light headed lately every time I stand up. I think it has something to do with not taking care of myself. Maybe not, either way I'm using it as a reason to get back to running and eating better. One lat thing for this post is something good...finally...no more whining. :) So I checked my Property Law grade today...expecting seriously a D and I pulled out a B-! How that happened I have no idea. I was REALLY worried about that class because the test was two hours with 6 short essays and two long essays. I barely had time to finish. Normally I like to take ten or fifteen minutes at the end to make sure I have everything covered. I didn't have time to do that in this test. So that worried me but thankfully it all worked out. Also I was happy to hear that my ubber smart lawyer brother got a C in his class his first year too. I just hope my last two grades I'm waiting for end up being high B's and that will be enough to get a transfer. We're praying anyway...something needs to change my school is messed up. Well anyway, this turned out to be longer than I had planned. So I'm done!